I think I realised long ago that I have a problem. But up until now I think I have chosen not to do anything about it, but there come a point in your life when you have to say enough is enough. Today is that day for me.
I have become everything that I fear the most. Becoming like my alcoholic father and that is something that I hate the most. To be honest I think it is something that has haunted my my entire adult life.
So today thinkings change, today is the start of my life, no more hiding behind a bottle or a drink, no more blaming problems on drink its now or never!
I think that by keeping a blog it will help me keep a level and see where I have gone wrong.
I am hoping that from somewhere I will find the strength and determination to keep it going and on a day by day basis by updating this it will help me keep in focus what I am trying to achieve.
